Life is boring...

Yesterday I think a talked too much with my family on the phone.. After that I was completly down because I'm here.. It is weird. I never been homesick before.. not like this.. not for so long..
Probably because there is so much problems around me at the moment, it 's not only my personal ones but also alot in school, it's crazy..
..yesterday I had to go out for a while because it just became too much.. I really hate being like this..
I wished I could explain my self but I can't, not even to my self.
I don't recognise my self. I'm just waiting to be "normal" again.. at least stop crying.
My back is better as long as I lay down.. So today I spended the whole day laying down.. it sucks.. it is really boring..
I miss my life, I miss my self, I miss everything..
4 days left..