I'm lazy and tired and want:

food...
a massage...
new clothes...
back my normal lips... (mina läppar är jätte torra och spruckna uhuhuhu...)
a yaccuzi...
a clean room...
my babies...
to sleep...
some looooooveeee!!!!!!!

and if someone wants to send me gifts I want that too!

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Yesterday I went to my teatcher Vincent's place with all my class! His house is one of the most beautyful and peaceful places I ever been too. The moment I entered the door I just felt a complete calm spreading in my body and for a second I thougt I got religous! But then I realised it was just the first time in very long time that I just realxed... completly relaxed.. All my worries disapeard! We had a nice time with alot of tea and snacks and food and movies from when we went to Togo!
When we came back I went out in Brussels with all the first and second years of my school! It was super nice! Some of my closest (and drunkest) friends told me some true stuff that made me think and I think I needed to hear them! haha..

Today I worked from 10 to 18 with the show and it was super fun!
I told my self all day I had alot of energy and that I was not tired! And it worked!

Now it's movie night....


By the way! I forgot to tell you that I'm going to Portugal for the easter holiday! JIHUU! Two weeks! I hope it will be warm and a lot of sun!

Stormy weekend

This weekend are going to be history! At least in my life!
(Unfortantly Lotta was in France so she missed it)
First of all it all started with a storm.. Thursday night was so stormy so a lot of trees fell all over the caravans, luckily no one injured.. wich led too I had alot of night guest! Violaine, Vladimir and Luca came since it was too dangerous for them to be in their caravans, and offcourse Josse (she lives here for the moment) and Pedro who passes by every now and then!
So friday morning we had a big and nice breakfast together.
And since we work hard with our creation I was almost more tired then ever.. so I considered to stay home, luckily Pedro convinced me to go to school anyway! I turned out to have the best day in school for months! I got an amazing energy when I arrived so the cradle and the work with the creation went super good! So I arrived home at seven in the evening still full of energy!
Pedro, Josse, Vlad, Vio and Luca (who all "lived" at my place all weekend) was at my place so we went to eat durum and then we decided to play KingsCup!
Stina, Emiliano, Stefano, Luïc and Paolo joined us and the KingsCup started.. It ended several of hours and beers later with a bunch of happy and drunk almost naked people! I will not tell any details but my God we had fun!
Saturday on the other hand became very calm and peaceful! We only played tarot and saw a movie during the whole day! And offcourse it included pizza, candy and several liters of water and juice!
Today I(we) have been working from 10.30 until just before six... It's been a good day but it ended a bit earlier because Wiliam (our assistent director) got stuck in his back and couldn't move anymore..
Now I'm waiting for the others to end the movie they are watching and I will join them with/in another movie...
Viva le weekend!

Cleaning..

Today school was horrible... Only because I have so much muscle pain that I can't hardly walk! So for once is good pain, but still is pain! hahaha...
I started the day with an hour of massage! That was nice! Otherwise we have been working with the creation like normal... It is fun... But today our director forgot me so I sat and waited one hour in the cradle... that was less fun..
Now I'm cleaning my computer.. I put all my things on my external memory... It takes time... (now I have a blog break) specially since Josse talks and disturbs me all the time!
But it's nice to be disturbed!
Yesterday night I intruduced her to Pedro and my babies.. I think it went ok! We ate dinner and laught and went home way too late!
Over and out for now..

Nils / Tore

Oh my..
My life here in Brussel is changing.. Yesterday night Josse (an really good friend) moved here, and she is living at my place until she finds her own! So I finally have a friend outside school! It's great!
Since she have to meet all my friends I showed her alot of pictures and explain how and who everyone are!
The funny part is that when she saw Nils she directly said thet he looks like an unfamous
TV-wannabe in Sweden! I don't know who he is but she showed me on picture and it is true so from now on Nils is named Tore! You all cen see it right here! hahaha....

Otherwise my life is like normal.. We work with the creation all the time.. I do more and more things every day but I still have hard to belive that I will be able to do an act within 4 weeks.. But I try..
Even if I don't do too much during the days I'm super tired..
So now I will start my beauty sleep.. ZZZzzzzz..

Friday night...

This week has past fast and nice! I have been starting at one everyday.. So I have been watching alot of movies this week.... If you haven't seen it all ready, see "Little miss sunshine", it is super funny and good!
The creation is going good, today I have been dancing abit and it feels good in my back.. I also have been doing some small physical preparation in the cradle for two days and I feel ok in the back! That is nice! I hope I will last, at least during the creation!
Now Pedro, Violaine, Vladimir, Luca and Mikaël are at my place and we are playing tarot! Super nice!
(since we are 6 players we skip one turn each every sixth time.. so now it was me..)
Now I have to play!
Bonne weekend tout le monde!

Rainy, windy and gray

Now school started for real! Not me but all the others! It's so nice to have everyone back again! My christmas gifts made a succes! I love to give things when the persons gets happy for real!

For the moment almost everyone suffers from muscle pain except me! I work in my own tempo witch this week means kind of nothing.. I look and try to learn.. Our production is going fine, for only one week I think we (I should say they..) great! The photo shoot for our flyer was interesting.. haha.. We where naked except for underwears (no bra), I must say that I didn't feel comfortable at all but since I'm an artist I pretended I felt fine walking around allmost naked with everyone... So now I have done my first "naked foto shoot"!!! hahaha... I hope the result will be fine!

Otherwise I haven't done so much! I've been with Pedro, Vlad and Vio.. we played tarot yesterday night!
Today we gonna go and pick our babies! (Pacman & Pumpkin)!

I'm on an after xmas diet..

First weekend in Brussels..
Friday we where in school all day, it is really hard to just look at the others. I want to work too...
In the night there was a party at Sandras place but I didn't feel like being social so I stayed at home rearranging my room. I've been so social during the vacation so it was super nice to spend an evening just for my self!

Yesterday I was in town with Lotta, Stina and Lena (a friend of Stina), it was nice to just walk around and talk and look at funny clothes!
In the evening Charlotte USA, Kenzo, Vlad, Vio, Luïc, Angelos and Gert joined us at my and Lottas place! We ate toast and just had a nice time! It's fun to see everyone again!
Cedric and me started a night tradition! haha.. he has been coming to my place two days now around midnight and we watch two or three episodes of prison break!

Today we start to work in school in one hour.. we gonna take photoes for the flyer/poster, and then work until six or something...

Pedro and Emiliano arrives today! and Nils, and all the others! JIHUUU!!

Vacation is over...

Time is an amazing thing, it can pass by so fast that you don't even notice and sometimes it is so slow that you almost die of waiting...

This vacation went to fast. I'm not ready. I didn't go on holiday.. I didn't have time to just do nothing.. I'm already back in Brussels.. It feels impossible.. I thaught we had a long holiday and now it already gone...
BUT it was a absolutly wonderfull holiday! I met all my family and all the friends I've been longing to see! I have been doing so many things!
I've been:
eating,
partying,
travelling between Stockholm and Norrköping like a jojo,
swimming,
watching "bounce"
horse riding,
eating more,
at my mums gym,
"fixing" my back,
hanging out with family and friends,
shopping,
telling the "dick in the throat" joke,
dancing,
doing a lot of suprises for my friends,
eating even more...


At least going home made my heart and head come back! I feel like a human again, I feel more like me! I have been happy every day since the 20 of december.. That is a nice feeling! I forgot that I could be happy for so long...

My back is not good yet I have atleast two more weeks of "resting" but I will be good, sooner or later.. there is a hope even for me!

Today I was back in school! Nice to meet my class again! I missed almost everyone! We just watched the movies from when we where in Togo..
On monday the rest of the school is back!
It is a very freaking feeling to suddenly be back in school..