BIRTHDAY!

It's my birthday!
So far my birthday is GREAT! I woke up the first time at four o'clock this morning, it was Lotta! She left to Italy that time so she took my sister and came and sang to me! It was really nice! But it took a while to fall asleep again!
Then I woke up at ten, next to my babe! It's always nice to wake up with a babe! We went to school and I worked with Pauline, last time before holiday!
Now I just arrived home and my sister and Nils cleaned the whole appartment! So now we can just relax until we have to leave to the airport! For me it's gonna be a bit hard to relax because my sister is already nervous for the flight and are walking around like a cat...
Anyway! It's a perfect birthday to wake up here in Brussels and fall a sleep in Sweden, Blidö!
I will be without internet for a couple of days now so I will not write so much in my blog...
BUT! Happy Birthday to me!

Sentimental Night

It's three o'clock. Can't sleep. Everyone else in the house sleeps.. I'm watching O.Z. episodes..
Tonight it was the birthday party of Lotta, me and Violaine. It was in Kenzo, Vlad and Luca's place. It was a really nice party, I had a good time but it was not really as I expected it to be. I think it was because Vlad injured him self a bit just before we came so the energy was kind of down.

Me, Lotta and Violaine had cakes and a "teddybear" dog each! It's lovely! Mine is black and white, it was from everyone so I'll call it, "Hunden". I also got a cd from Kenzo, french reggae! It's gonna be my favorite this summer I guess!

Anyway, on the party I realized that for about two weeks I've been longing to get out of school for 2 months and just go to Sweden and see other friends and so on, and now, when I'm finally leaving I don't want to. I will miss my people here in ESAC a lot, some more then others but still, it's gonna be weird to not be around them for so long. We haven't been separated more than 2 weeks since september. And then it hitted me, maybe they are not gonna miss me at all.
Atleast I will miss you, alot.

Before I get to sentimental I will continue my O.Z. episodes..

So fresh and so clean..

Nothing is like waiting times..
Now I'm with my sister who arrived yesterday! We are doing mostly nothing! I love that! She just saw a movie about a racing zebra... She liked it a lot! I've been in school this morning to clean the acrobatic room,we cleaned the whole scool so now everyone who comes to the audition will think that the school is always this clean! They should now the truth. It's cleaned once a year.. just before the audition. Our dear headmaster don't think it's necessary to hire any cleaning people so once a year all the students do it. If you ask me I would prefer that he hire someone so we (the students) doesn't have do have an asthma attac everytime we enter a room!

Now my sister wants coffee so I'm gonna be a nice sister and tell her I don't have any...

Tonight it's the birthday party of me, Lotta and Violaine! and the end of the year party so I expect alot of happy drunk friends dancing all night long!

"The Sister"

In a couple of hours my sister arrives so now I'm gonna turn my dirty appartment to a clean paradise!
At least I will try.
My loved sister has to have a nice welcome!

"The Nils"

Nils is gonna live at my place the last days of school, he is in the middle of a moving out and a moving in so the honor of having Nils at home for a couple of days went to me!
Welcome Nils!

"The Night"

After I left Micka at the station (and Sandra..) I came home to my a little bit extremely messy room/appartment and died on the bed, after some killing time on internet I took a shower to wake my self up!
After the shower I found Nils videocamera, I had an idea of taking naked photos on me and see how he would react! After two milli seconds of thinking of that idea I realized that he would within 3 seconds publish them on internet so I decided to save my little photosession for another lifetime!
Just a couple of moments after he arrived! He did the best he could do in that moment, he said it was Pizza time!
Perfekt, so we joined the others (Loïc, Paolo, Christer, Emiliano, Violaine, Pedro, Vladimir, Luca, Tim, Stina, Lea) and we all ate as much pizza we could. After the pizza party me, Pedro, Vio, Vlad, Luca o Nils rolled over to my place and played Tarrot the rest of the night! Pauline joined us after some rounds! This night was a bit more action than the other nights we played, because Pauline was trying to cheat most of the time, Luca was playing with her and strangely they won with around 500 points.. As you can imagine it was some protests from the rest of us, but the night ended in a smile anyway!
Another nice night in Brussels is over and done.

"The trip"

At 04.45 sunday morning I promised Sandra to come with her to the train station and kiss her goodbye for her trip to Canada!
Normaly when I wake up that crazy hour of the day, I'm too tired to be tired. So it is ok! This time was not one of these cases, maybe it was because I went to bed at three, I don't know, anyway I was more dead then alive. It was impossible to open my eyes and as soon as I forced them open tears started to come. Nils who also came to say goodbye at the station told me that I was a very nice company.. I don't remember going there.. ha ha.. I remember saying goodbye in the train to Sandra and mine and Nisses way home but not the rest..
So Sandra if you read this, I'm sorry love for my company but next time will be better!

On the way home my brain started to activate (i think) it was really surrealistic, on the parking place of Carrefour was three or four police cars and some young drunk people, from the exit of Cactus the last people went out, on my street and in front of my door people started to arrange a market..

If that's not a morning trip, I don't know what is.

"The Micka"

After the game and the show Micka and I escaped.
Micka took me to a nice restaurant and we ate a nice meal and talked about things that you will never know about!
As always when you are with Micka time flies by and we had to go to the last metro!
And we went to school to join the third year's end party for their show, we arrived just before twelwe and the party was over...
But (I said but...) me, Micka, Pedro, Nils, Stina, Emiliano, Cedric, Sandra, Paolo, Christer and probably someone more I forgot, went to hang out and continue our little party in the "park/playground".
We heard alot of jokes, drank some beers and breezers and we were young and we had fun and it's the season of the sun.

Next day (yesterday) we woke up at two! I was working in the bar of the last Exit show that was at 15.30 so I brought Micka to school and she could have everything she wanted from the bar and then she saw the show!

I left her at the train station yesterday night.. She is at this moment back in buissnes in Amsterdam.

Anyway, she gave me alot of energy this day(s) and we had a really nice time! I love her and miss her alot, but when you meet like this it feels like time stopped and we never been separated..

THANK YOU FOR COMING! It was the best birthday present so far!!

"The Show"

The rehearsals went really good and the time went much faster since Micka came.
Suddenly it was nine o'clock and it was time to start.
Everyone who have seen Grand Place knows that it's quite big, then imagine a huge stage, then add a orchestra with around 40 people plus a choir the same sice as the orchestra with four solo opera singers in front. Thats a mighty view.
The whole Grand Place was full of people!
We did our part as good as we could and it worked!
We were happy, Virgini was happy, the audience was happy, everyone was happy!
I like happy endings..

"The Game"

oh my what a weekend!
Saturday I spended the day in town, rehearsals and warming up for the night spectacolo on Grand Place.
Micka came a round four o'clock. I sended Nils to pick her up with the instrucsions to pick a blond swedish girl called Micka up from the station, and belive it or not he saw her direct when she came of the train!
While Nils was picking up Micka I was waiting to rehearse the last time before "The Game" (Sweden-Germany) and then Benoit comes and tell me that we delaid our rehearsals one hour, I seriously thought he was kidding just to piss me of. When I realized that I was going to miss the football game of the year I became 3 years old, said some bad words laid down on the ground and almost cried some angry tears, but one moment I looked up and I saw Micka coming! And in 2 seconds I became 23 again and all my sorrows were gone!

While we rehearsed I had reports from the game and the more I missed the more happy I became for not seeing the game, it doesn't hurt the same when you don't see them making a complete fool of them selfs. So I don't like to say this but I'll do it anyway! Congratulations Germany, you were the best team.

Happy things:

1. Micka's is coming today!
2. Sweden - Germany plays at 17.00 !
3. I will perform tonight!
4. There's a big party at school!
5. Stina is coming in 2 days!

Sad things:

1. Sandra leaves tomorrow..
   

Midsummer

Today it's midsummer.
I spend it at home.. In Brussels. That sucks..
Luckily I talk with Micka on msn.. She is one of my oldest and best friends. She is also an circusartist and now she is doing alot of streetdance aswell, she lives in Amsterdam! And she saved my evening! If I'm really lucky she will come here tomorrow! I cross my fingers and hope..

Otherwise the day has been a nice day, I woke up with "the naked snoring thing" this morning and he went to school! I love to stay home in bed when he has to leave! When he came back we ate some lunch, then I accedentally fell a sleep for a while.. When I woke up I had to go and work for tomorrow show! It was ok today! It went quite good! Ecxept that you can feel that the class is really tired and want to have holiday, it's alot of arguing among the class, some more than others. But I guess that's how it is in the end of the year.

When we came back I went to the pizzeria with Pedro, Nisse, Luca, Vlad, Emiliano, Sandra and Lotta. It was nice and good for the soul (pizza is never good for the body..)

Yes, that was my midsummer. I'm not complaining at all because it was a good day but, I miss Sweden and my friends and right now I want to be with them on Blidö, be drunk and just have fun! But I have to wait another week!

where is "John Blund"??

Thursday night.. can't sleep.

Maybe because I have something naked and snoring next too me...

Today I saw "EXIT 5", all the acts. I like half of them. The show is in general too slow, and the transisions are (I'm sorry) terrible, they don't mean anything and it's just boring. A normal black out would be better..
The acts and my critics: I start from the top.

Luciana, "Tissue": I don't understand the idea, I didn't like the music or the "feeling". A nice idea was the white eyes (she had white contacts on) but she could have played with it more.
Jérémie, "Slack rope": He is a balancing slack rope guy, he is a technical genius but his artistic work didn't reach me, he was in his own world tomuch. He had somekind of cowboy music that he could have played more with. I would like him to do it more comical, this was to slow and serious for me.
Marijke, "Contact juggling with two clubs": WOW! It is amazing what this girl can do, it's magic. Her act is perfekt, one of the best I've seen. It's like a fairy tail. I was enchanted from the first second until the last.
Sérgio, "Mini trampoline": A very honest and charmy act. He plays with a projection and how the life as an artist is. He play with his voice recorded and live, "First; Breath. Second; Prepare your self...." and "Sérgio, do this, do that, you can do better, don't stop...." I like it. It's a nice idea that makes you enjoy the act and you recognise your self in it.
Florencia, "Cloud swing": I love her energy on stage, in the air. She was doing the whole act talkning, no music. Greate! I like alot! She played with us as an audience, "Come, look at me, I do this for you......"
Benoît, "Trampoline": He moves with grace and has an amazing technical skill. He is the acrobats answer to Anatoli, I call him Bébétoli.. Its beutiful what he does, it's not really my stile but you can not, not like it.
Mille, "Contorsion": It is more theater than circus but I love her, she has a really good stage present and she gives you something to think about.
Daniel, "Rope": It's a nice act but it's empty, it dont give anything. Maybe because I expected something more spectacular, but I like more watching him train than this act.
Sara, "Trapeze": She is also really good technical artist and normaly I really like her acts. But this time it was too messy, the act didn't fit together with the music and costume. She can do better.

So, that was a short and honest feedback made by me, my self and I.

Now I will try to join my naked snoring friend in the land of dreams...

GOOD NIGHT!

Bar night

So, another sleepless night! Tonight I've been working in the bar for the third year show "EXIT 5" . Its fun but its alot of dishes to do, but I had nice company of Kenzo, Paolo, Vlad and Pedro so it was not so bad! It's actually really nice to have music and be in the kitchen because you can sing and dance without anyone seeing you!
Unfortantly I was not able to see the whole show, I saw the first 4 acts, then I had to work.. I will tell you my critics of the show when I've seen it all. Probably on friday.

On friday it's midsummer in Sweden.. It's the first time I'm not at home. I love midsummer, normaly I'm in the archipelago of Stockholm, on the island Blidö where I lived every summer my whole life. I spend a lovely weekend with my friends, a lot of party and summer feeling! I'm gonna miss it this year. But life is life and you have do make choices!

Monday night is a special night for me, my sister Stina comes to visit me the last days of school! I miss her alot and I'm really longing to see her! She has her 30 birhday the 2 of July, it's amazing.. I don't see her as 30 at all.. I think she is the best proof that age is just a number and nothing else.

Well now I have nothing more to say for the moment so:

Good night, sleep tight and don't let the bedbugs bite!

Thank you, my love in life!

Yesterday was a long day. A long day of waiting, waiting for something that makes me sweat just by thinking of it.

I woke up by Sandra who called me on my phone, she came and joined me for breakfast, then we happy "skuttade" to the park! The weather was not really on our side but it worked! Suddenly Sandra shines more then the sun, she thought she heard a Quebeck accent some where.. I told her she was probably imagine because she is soon back in Cananda, Quebeck.
And oh, I was wrong! She went to talk with them and, YES, he was quebeckoir (have no idea how you spell that..). And not enough with that he and his friend had some kind of radiostation that Sandra listens to! So she called me and I putted my clothes on(I was in bikini taking the sun) and went to see them. They where crazy! They wanted me to see Swe-Eng with them and make comments on the radio, and I said ; NO! But I allowed them to call after the game and give some comments..
After this little, for me, wierd meeting we went to school. I couldn't really eat lunch becasue my stomach was kind of nervous.. but I manage to eat some yoghurt!
At 15.00 we started to work in A.D.E.P.S. for the show on saturday, I was a bit freaked out and jumped around and disturbed the others abit because I couldn't fokus at all, and suddenly during a 5 minutes discusion I fell a sleep... OUPS.. but I pretended I din't sleep and tried to go on without understaning a shit but I failed.. We where finished working at seven.
Two hours to go.
I went home and tried to fresh my self up and putted a yellow shirt and blue jeans..
I came to town and O'reillys at 20.00 and it was already ful, no seats but I managed to have good standing place infront of a screen, Pauline and Nisse joins me after a while. To stand in a über full bar and wait with 90% englishmen doesn't make me calm.. But I reminded them that they didn't win since -68 and probably they wouldn't do it today either. And so it starts..
I'm not gonna comment everything, if you want to know what happend read a newspaper.
BUT! I screamed, I jumped, I laght, I cried, I gave up and then he comes like an angel from the sky, my hero,my love in life, Henrik Larsson. And he scores 2-2 in the 90 minute. It was a lucky goal but soo nice!
And for the first time of the day, i relaxed! It was over, we didn't win but it almost felt like we did. They didn't win either and thats the most important. Now we are waiting for Germany, I'm sorry Tim(the only german guy in my school) but we will stop you from the Word Cup Final..
Unfortantly we have rehersals in the same time as the game on saturday but, Henke, I promise you that I will do everything in my power to see the game!

Today I start at 14.oo with rehersals and then tonight I will work in the bar for "EXIT 5" and I will see the show, I'll tell you everything later..

...piuo...

I FORGOT TO REMIND YOU OF MY BIRTHDAY! IT'S IN 10 DAYS! 29/6

5 min. and 8 sec.

Today has been a quite calm day. I feel the summer sneaking in to my body, just relaxing in the sun tempt me more than spending the day inside the school.
Weird? up to you!
But I'm lucky because I didn't start until 12.30 with a meeting about a show in october,"Landing", it just took around thirty minutes.
I like effective meetings.
Since we are (my class) in a small production we have a special and for me very nice schedule. We start at 15.00 or 16.00 and end between 17.00 and 19.00. And thats it! I can spend the whole morning in the park or wherever I want!
Anyway, today we started at 15.00, we settled the whole act, 5 minutes and 8 seconds. Impressive! I don't know how it will look but I hope it will work fine! If you ask me about it I would say that we don't use our skills. We can do much better work than this but our director are thinking in another way so I'm a good student and do what she tells me to do! If I'm gonna be totaly honest it's because I have no energy to spend on this performance, my body and brain is on holiday! Sorry Virginy but thats the truth.
Ha, ha, ha, ha.. I almost forgot. We tried our costumes today! OH, MY GOD! How can I explain it so it doesn't come out bad.. What are they thinking? It started out good a couple of days ago, they took all our messures, wich felt very proffesional, and today they showed up with.. A mix of everything from a time era that I don't know when. All pants where atleast 15 cm to big for everyone, big shirts, skirts that weights ten kilos.. But I smile and stay possitive, it's gonna look great together! Just one question: How do you do acrobatics in heavyskirts?
(I quick picked a almost fitting brown pair of pants and a dark red tight t-shirt, so if you are interested dark sweatmarks in the armpitts you should come to "Grand Place" on saturday evening!)

Now I'm gonna prepare my self mentaly and physicly for tomorrows highlight: Sweden - England. Let the best team win (Sweden)

The heat makes you slow..

Yesterday evening/night didn't turn out as I expected it. No football.
Everyone who knows me and Pedro knows that sometimes we are a bit slow.. I think it is the heat that makes me slow. At least it's better to blame something that you can't control.
Anyway we came home from the parc as you already read yesterday but we didn't make it to town.
Suddenly it was ten pm and we decided to rent a couple of movies instead. We headed to the DVD center and picked 4 movies that would keep us busy all night. While we walked back the hunger catched us up. We realiced we didn't eat since the breakfast/lunch. We went to try out the recently opened pizzeria next to my house. As we waited for our pizzas we had a very nice phonecall! Vladimir and Violaine came and joined us. And we had a quick visit from Stina and Emiliano aswell. After a couple of beers we went to my place and played Tarrot (a french card game I'm in love with) until late hours. But as always with Pedro, Vladimir and Violaine it was a great night with a lot of laughing and many points to count.

Today I guess you can guess what I've done.. Clue: 4 movies.. and a quick visit to the parc, and to town to deliver some flyer for the third years exit show; EXIT 5.
Everyone who can should come and see it, it is the 21-24/6 at 20.30 and the 25/6 15.30 in "Centre scolaire du Souverain", Auderghem, Brussels. More information click here.
And while I'm talking about performances me and my class (year 2 of E.S.A.C) are gonna show a piece on "Grand Place", Brussels on saturday 24/6 around 21.00. More info later.

Now I'm waiting that my personal cooker is gonna deliver me some food, so I can continue my movies...

The Park

This morning I woke up and the sun was shining again! Here in Brussels you never now what weather you will wake up to. I desided quite soon that I would spend my day in the park and enjoy the sun. I went to Pedro to see if he was still alive after his trip to Paris yesterday night. And to my big suprise he was almost alive! After one and a half hour of convincing him that a day in the park is much better than a day inside with the computer he almost agreed with coming with me. It was not until I bought a nice breakfast/lunch he agreed to come with me. The way to the park was almost funny because I found out that he is actually a master of complaing!
Finally in the park we had a really nice lunch and day, playing card and enjoying the sun. On the way home we somehow started to play "who do you prefer" it was super fun!

Soon we are going to meet Emiliano and drink some beers and watch Italy - USA.

Big smile

This morning I woke up with a big smile on my lips. Can a day start better than that? The smile came from yesterday nights football game, Sweden-Paraguay. I won't put anymore details than that we won with 1-0.
The day followed with the last circus discipline class of the year. On fridays we don't have our original teacher, Yuri, because he has one day off a week. Wich kind of means that we don't have a teacher at all! Since it was the last class we started to try eachothers disciplines, I juggled a bit and did some tissue, but I don't enjoy juggling and in the tissue I burned my armpitts directly so I climbed quite fast up to my cradle and safe ground!
We (me and Pauline) played/trained and tried a lot of new tricks we haven't been able to do before and belive it or not we manage to do 4 new tricks!
The day was saved and the rest of it I did everything exept what I was suppose to do. And now I will fall alseep as I woke up, with a smile...

a life upside down

This is me and what I do.
I´m a cradle catcher. My flyer is called Pauline.

It all started in Norsholm, Sweden around autumn 1986. I was a happy little girl with alot of energy so my parends took me to a youth circus called "Norsholm Ungdoms Cirkus". And there I started my carreer as a circus artist. It started with frontrolls and cartwheels.. during the years I did pyramidacrobatics, banquine, trapeze and so on. Pyramidacrobatics was my main speciality, we where 12 girls who travelled the world betwen -96 and -02 and did festivals and tent shows. We where called "Olana". 2002 we wanted to go further and leave the amateur level and try our luck as proffesional artists and started an own group called "Norrköping cirkus och varieté" but it didn´t work as I expected so I desided to leave Norrköping, my hometown, and try my luck as an artist somewhere else. Since I never worked alone i desided to do audition to Cirkus Cirkör, Cirkus Piloterna. Stockholm. To my big suprise they accepted me as a student so autumn 2003 I started my life on the way to become a proffesional artist. I was there for 2 years and was training circus full time. The first year I did pair acrobatics and the second I started with cradle. I graduated from there spring 2005. Unfortunately my situation in life made me leave my flyer and go to Brusseles.

So here I am. In my second circus school, E.S.A.C. Brusseles.